Maybe Faith is more than my world view

We all grow up with it:

The way we see ourselves and the way we see others, along with our perspective on the world we live in.

As a Christian I grew up with the perspective of what was "right" and what was "wrong".

Knowing more about the world I live in, I realize now, what I like and dislike often influence my perspective on "right and wrong".

The Christian context I grew up in is defined by "right and wrong" along with the legalistic pursuit of an insurance in the faith "I" believe.

The perch I sit from today looks much different than yesterday and I long for the freedom to have faith in more than my world view.

I want faith in God, not just the Christian presupposition that makes up the God of my world view, instead I want faith in the Kingdom Christ talks about in the Gospels. A God that would incarnate the Kingdom and the "news" that the Kingdom is for those who do not belong. The Gospel will always have a door open to the people with out a home, food, or a reason to believe.

I want to believe... There is more than just me, but I do not think the Kingdom looks like what it once looked like in the world view of my youth.

I have been scared to share my thoughts for so long, because of fear of rejection from the community I long to be apart of...

Why do you believe on not believe and what do you believe in?